- Mar 7

PIVOT.

There have been many points in life where a pivot was needed. But fear, I think, causes people to linger too long on the path they've started.

Learning how to tell which doors are meant for you

and which you should close is important.

Sometimes we put so much time, effort, and money into something that we cling too long to the hope that it is the right path.

I used to have an Etsy shop where I designed invitations and wedding packages. It was successful but I was running myself into the ground. I was trying to balance my creative entrepreneur side while really wanting to lean in to being a homeschooling mom. Ultimately, I decided to close the shop to prioritize my kids and I will never regret that decision.

“Be brave enough to live the life of your dreams according to your vision and purpose instead of the expectations and opinions of others.” -Roy T. Bennett, The Light in the Heart

People around me thought I was crazy, that I was prioritizing the wrong thing. I was homeschooling long before people understood it, and many still don't. But I knew in my heart that I was building a legacy with my sons. I look back now and I'm so grateful that I had the courage to go against the grain and follow my heart. They are my greatest pride and joy in life, always will be.

Yet much to my surprise, they don't need me as much now (too bad I was so good at teaching them how to adult.) They still need me daily and I am so thankful that they choose me as their friend and counselor, but I needed to pivot again and figure out what fills my cup.

I reopened my Etsy shop and it took off. People connected with my sarcastic side so I leaned in to that. I was craving laughter and lightness so I figured other people would be as well.

But my heart craved more....

So here I sit, in this space, mustering up the courage to share more of my heart, so you can find yours also. It was easy, safe even, to design products that make people laugh. Honestly, I probably needed to work through a lot of the kinks and learning curves on what had changed technology-wise with some of my simpler designs before I was ready to launch more.

Though, quietly, the still small voice of our creator was nudging me to share more of my talents with the world. You were made special. The world needs more of what you have to offer. Show up and you will find your courage. I am with you, always.

What I didn't know is how much healing would happen by trusting Him with this. I am slowly opening from my protective cocoon. I feel lighter. I know now that I will always keep pivoting, as needed, to become a truer version of myself.

I knew I had to bring back my blog since I see myself more clearly through writing. It helps me work out my feelings and be able to quiet the voice inside. I could journal and keep this to myself....but other peoples words have helped me more times than I can count. So I'll try to find the courage to share my heart more. Just know that if you are in a place where your inner voice is encouraging you to show up more authentically, to change direction, to let things go, trust it and see how best you can pivot to fulfill who you were meant to be. Those nudges are there for our good.