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IN A HURRY TO SLOW DOWN

I've always hated airports for the hurry up and wait. You have to rush to the next thing but when you get there, you're stuck waiting on everyone else that was a little faster than you. It really puts my anxiety through the wringer.

A little side note about me....if you know anything about the enneagram, you'll understand this better, but I am an enneagram 9w1. That basically tells you that I crave peace above all else, and that I have a perfectionist tendency.


But back to the point....


I mentioned in a previous post about pivoting. This post is more about my dream that caused me to pivot. I long to have a large acreage in the mountains that overlooks a body of water with chickens and pigs and maybe even a cow.


I picture myself tending to my garden, chasing after grandchildren (not anytime soon), being inspired by the landscape around me to create new designs, reading books in the sun. The subtext behind this vision is that I've gotten my business to a place that supports this lifestyle without creating additional stress.



“Intentional living is about living your best story.” -John C. Maxwell

But I get anxious. I want to have it all done. now. I want everything to already be in this picture perfect place. And I get anxious, telling my nervous system that I'm behind & that I need to work faster, or harder, to get to where we are supposed to be. And that causes undue stress.


I can only do so much in a day. And even though I want some things done immediately, even if it's just to make other things work more efficiently, I can only do so much in a day. (I repeated that for me.)


I could rush through things to get stuff accomplished- I mean, I do some of my best work when I'm overwhelmed, because I have to work faster. But then I would miss it.

I would miss the process.

I would miss the inspiration.

I would miss the joy in the work.

I would miss the opportunity to show others that it's okay to forge your own path.


Why do I need to be in such a hurry to get to a place where I can slow down? Why don't I just slow down now and enjoy the journey?


One of the best things about the stage I'm in is that I am showing up more authentically. I am slowing down to admire the flowers. I am slowing down to draw and create. I am slowing down to get to know new people. I am slowing down to sit in the sun. I am slowing down to see the beauty in nature. I am slowing down to read and learn and grow. I am slowing down to be the real me.


May he give you the desire of your heart and make all your plans succeed. -Psalms 20:4

I have a new collection releasing soon. It has little glimpses into my heart and a deep story that no one can fully understand but me. But I am choosing to slow down now, before I get to the promised land- because I want to enjoy the journey.


Warmest regards,




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